I once heard: “I believe almost without believing but I can’t help but believe.” I have daydreamed since my youth about the supreme being, God, the supposed inaccessibility of such understanding has always been in my “Thomas” moments. I have read Nietzsche to try to stop believing, but it is impossible for me.
What I love about not stopping believing is not the pious gestures or stereotypes of spiritual and religious people, many of whom I even admire. What I love are the aromas and tastes and the perfection of the chaos of the universe that is unattainable by our minds.
I love the smell of coffee at 6:00 in the morning, the expression of desire and love between individuals, a wine to celebrate achievements or just to relax on a “freaky” day, what enchants me is the capacity of the human mind to produce so much beauty from thistles and thistles, and it leads me to touch God when I know that everything came from Him.
I no longer need to see angels, in fact I don't even want to, I never wanted to, supernatural phenomena never caught my attention, nor revelation of the future, gifts and everything we call spiritual certainties of the manifestation of God, because God manifested himself in me in the perception of the beauty of life even in the midst of chaos.
When I see a mother's love for her child, the passion involving two beings who are sometimes even strangers, I am enchanted by João de barro and his animal responsibility of building his little house, when I see others being helped by friends, the sun that warms, the moon that struts the night, the unknown, the past, the future, today, there is nothing in this world that does not invoke God, his revelation and wisdom.
“who alone is immortal, dwelling in unapproachable light, whom no one has seen or can see. To him be honor and dominion forever. Amen.” 1 Timothy 6:16
When I confess this inaccessibility, I am speaking of the supreme, holy and sovereign act of God, and of an agnostic current or negative theology. Namely:
The thesis of the inaccessible God, also known as Negative Theology, is a theological school of thought that claims that it is impossible for humans to fully understand or describe the nature of God. According to this thesis, the human mind is limited and finite, while God is infinite and completely transcends our understanding.
Thus, instead of affirming what God is, Negative Theology seeks to say what God is not, through the denial of human attributes and characteristics that do not apply to Him. For example, instead of saying that God is love, Negative Theology would say that God is not a human being who feels love as we do.
This thesis has its origins in ancient Greek philosophy, but was developed mainly by Christian theologians during the Middle Ages. Today, it is still a theological current present in various religions and philosophies.
Blessed be the unattainable in the essence that revealed so much to us.